I have had lots of positive feedback on my blog, which has its 2 week anniversary now, which is very encouraging. But the thing that has surprised me most is the number of people who tell me how honest it is! But why would I not be honest, what would be the point of that, as who would I be fooling? One friend described them as ” very honest insightful passages” and another wrote ” it is a really good, honest eye opener for me”. I am delighted that readers appreciate my honesty and I guess I am bearing my soul here. I am trying to see if blogging about the issues I face everyday, serves as some form of self-help therapy for me.

My intention was to offer other parents of special needs advice and support, so that they did not feel that they were struggling alone, as I have frequently already alluded to how lonely this path can feel I have had messages of thanks from mums who I met at Great Ormond Street or at special schools. However, there have already been unexpected benefits:

– parents of ‘normal’ children – and I really hate that expression so forgive me for using it – have gained an insight into how their lives could have been very different, as I believe that it was just a quirk of nature that brought us Joshua rather than a healthy baby. One friend thanked me as it had made her appreciate her healthy family

– close family and friends have gained an understanding of what goes on inside my head in the early hours of the morning, as I do not talk about these deep feelings as they are too raw still, even after 14 years, to discuss without being emotional. I am always walking a tightrope, just a nudge away from tears, as many who know me well can testify.

So for as long as I am blogging, I assure you that I will continue to be honest and tell you how I see things , I am not claiming to represent my husband’s views or anyone else’s, just how the world looks & feels through my eyes.