So this is my first double-blog day!! It is 7.50 and normally I would be rushing around like a whirlwind getting Joshua dressed and fed and ready for his 8.20 taxi to school. But today, that is someone else’s job! I have taken my husband breakfast in bed – boiled egg and soldiers -, have fed our 6 hens and 4 dogs and now I am at a loose end!

I am in conflict : I am fighting for the respite that we lost in February as we as a family, need it, my head knows that. But my heart misses my son this morning! It is very hard to adjust, when you have 24 hours a day responsibility for someone that you love, to suddenly not have them around. That sense of loss is aggravated by the fact that I have had very limited news as their mobile reception is weak in the forest and the 8 staff will have their hands full with the 8 challenging teenagers in their care. So I will just have to patient until Joshua comes back to me later today by 4pm.