Day 2 of Holidays

Despite being on holiday, I still awoke exactly 6 hours after I went to bed, so I was walking along the cliff path with two dogs before 7 am, admiring the views. I love the promise and fresh start of a sunrise as well as the natural beauty, so it set me up nicely for the day ahead. Dog-walkers are just the friendliest people, I struck up so many conversations with strangers based around their dogs. If anyone was lonely and needed a reason to get out of the house and to meet new people, I would recommend dog ownership every time.

Sandown pier

When I got back to the house, both boys were still asleep, so I sat in the garden playing with the puppies and enjoying the views and memories that this house and garden bring me. When we came in the summer with my grandparents, we would often have a lunch of ham salad in the garden, which my sister and I would come back up from the beach for. As I liked neither ham nor salad as a child, I would have cold baked beans and grated cheese instead and I can remember my Granny telling me that I would turn into a baked bean as I ate so many of them! My sister and I would play on the  amusements on the seafront: we had a pact that whoever one on the penny falls – our game of choice – would have to share their winnings with the other. The trouble was that my sister never won anything, while I was pretty lucky. We would visit the shop on the way home and spend my winnings on chocolate, then sit under the dining room table to enjoy it secretly. Happy, carefree days, when we were secure and loved by our parents and grandparents in a place where it was a quick walk down the hill to the beach. I used to hover by the gate, waiting for someone to see where we lived , so that I could show off and to make them  jealous.

We had a lovely afternoon at a country show, overlooking the sea. As Joshua has rejected his wheelchair lately and objects so much to being in it that he has stamped the footplate off several times, we have listened to him so he walked around the show, but we were armed with our picnic rug so he could sit down on the grass wherever he wanted or needed to. We headed straight to the music stage where one of our favourite local bands were performing and we set up camp. As it became pretty hot at that time, Joshua lay down and chilled out. My husband and I took it in turns to look in tents and at stalls until he was ready to move on. We watched a dog agility act in the main ring but kept gravitating back to the music stage. We finished our afternoon out in the tea tent where, while I was fetching the refreshments over and my husband was watching a parade of vintage tractors, Joshua sat nicely at the tressle table. As I was coming over with the teas, I heard a lady ask him if the other seats were free or if she could join him with her two granddaughters? Of course, he just smiled at all three of them so I intervened and invited them to sit down opposite us. He was mesmerized by the teenaged girls opposite him and  their grandmother chatted away constantly about her family, until we had finished. Strangers often seem to want to share their life stories : the other morning while I was on the telephone to BT, the lady who was helping me to order broadband confided that she had suffered from domestic violence and had tried to take her own life once, I was not sure what to say, so I just listened as she seemed to want to talk. I find that if people want to talk, I try to take the time to listen.

We had a good day out and left around 4.30 pm when the dark clouds started to look threatening. The puppies, who had been left at home, were delighted to see us back again and I spent time with them in the garden again, so that they could burn off their boundless energy. It is a good feeling knowing that we have many more days ahead of us, just pleasing ourselves what we do, with no particular schedule.

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Day 1 of holidays

Joshua really could not have behaved better yesterday: he dozed in the morning while we packed up the car and so he was thrilled to get into the truck as he sensed that there was fun to be had. He has been relegated to the back of the truck, whereas he always sat in the front, since he tried to open the door while we were driving so he is now safely child-locked in the back. He was surrounded by pillows and he soon got comfortable and settled in, though he was delighted by the snacks that his Dad bought from the garage. After about 90 minutes of driving, I too nodded off and when I awoke, we were driving towards a town, not on the motorway as I expected. My husband explained that he was taking us to Donalds for lunch in his University town. But the roads had changed since he was studying so we could not get very close, and as Joshua was travelling barefoot, he drove around the one-way system to get closer. I had to get socks, splints and boots onto him while he was sitting in the backseat and then he was delighted to get out and stretch his long legs. We strode through the market, one of us either side of him holding his hands, but as we approached, we could see that Donalds was closed as building work was underway. Luckily neither of us had mentioned the word and so he did not know what he was rushing towards, so I quickly turned him around before he spotted the familiar golden arches. Instead we diverted into a cafe where he was happy sitting on a leather settee, enjoying juice and a chocolate muffin and he was none the wiser.

We continued our journey and he sat and dozed well  for the remaining hours, until we got to the docks precisely on time and he took a stroll to the toilets with me. He has always enjoyed the ferry but he particularly loved this crossing as Dad bought him pastie and chips, which he devoured, and he was surrounded by a coach load of French students to watch and wave at. Once we arrived at our family holiday home, he was happy to sit in the sitting room while we unloaded the car and to sit on what he knew to be his bed, while I unpacked the cases and made the beds up and his Dad went to the shops then made us some stir fry for tea. Joshua seemed to be pleased to be back – we were last here in February half term – but he seemed chilled out rather than super-excited. I am delighted too to be in my happy place – it is just that everything has changed : Mum will not be joining us for a few days, as she often did on our August stays, and Max is not with us anymore.

Here comes the sun……

One of the things that I dislike about the school holidays is that I hardly see Joshua at all : he has taken to having a lie in until after 10, which I am sure is good for him, but it means that Yorkshire Grandma arrives at 8.30 to allow me to go to work and takes over, so I do not see him awake in the mornings at all. Then, because he has a late breakfast, it means that he has a late lunch so she does not bring him home again until after 7 pm as he eats his tea at her place. So he has been coming in, saying hello, then asking for a bath almost immediately. So bath time is the only time that I really see him  properly, which seems very brief. I know that I am very lucky to have childcare that he enjoys, as he certainly loves to spend time with Yorkshire Grandma, but I also feel as though I am missing out.

I cannot however wait until the weekend, as we go away for our family fortnight and so then I will be with Joshua 24/7, so we will be able to catch up on lost time together. We are staying in a family property where I have holidayed most summers in my life, so it is a home from home for us all. Thankfully both my husband and Joshua love going there too, so it suits us very well for our holidays. Joshua knows the routine there, he goes straight to his bedroom as he knows where he belongs so there is no settling in time required and no need to waste time finding our bearings. The house was handed down through my Dad’s family and so when he died, Mum inherited his share and so now, my sister and I will inherit part ownership . As I spent all my childhood summers here, this house, garden and the surroundings will be full of memories of both of my parents. I have always felt closer to Dad there since he died and I am hoping to experience the same closeness with Mum.We are taking some more of her ashes with us to be scattered on a favourite walk, alongside Dad’s ashes, and I am hoping the same small blue butterflies make an appearance that we saw there, as that was very special.

More latterly, Mum has often joined us for a few days of our August fortnight, so she will be missed there too.She would come out on walks and for pub lunches with us, after doing her chores, as well as offering to babysit , allowing my husband and I to go out for meals or to the cinema in the evening or to take bike rides during the day. But it is her company that we will miss, more than her childcare, as she was always an excellent companion who was not in the least bit demanding.

So, one more day at work, then No More Working for a Week or Two…..

Bon Voyage

The time has come to pack up and travel back home, our half term week away is over already. Usually we stay away until the very last minute, travelling on Sunday and meaning that the return to school and work comes as a shock on Monday morning, when bags are still not unpacked. But this time , we are being sensible as we catch the ferry back this afternoon, which will get us home for bedtime and give us all day Sunday to get out of holiday mode and prepare ourselves. Thankfully, Joshua has kept to the same sleeping pattern mainly, so he has been in bed around 9pm all holiday and waking up between 7 and 8 am; this means that his bedtime routine is still in tact for school. In the past he has enjoyed late lie ins and stayed up later, so that re-adjusting to standard commuting times has been a struggle.

We have had no more kicking episodes since earlier in the week, but we have not dared take him to another supermarket since. So Tesco tomorrow will be an interesting trial. We met my Aunt and Uncle for a pub lunch yesterday and he behaved beautifully there, food seems to calm him down. We met in a lovely country pub and we sat around a large dining table, with Joshua and I wedged in on a bench seat so he was trapped. He waved happily at the staff, other customers and my relatives when they arrived. He watched his iPad movies intently, as though he had never seen them before and he drank his fresh orange juice while he waited patiently for his lasagne lunch. He enjoyed it when it arrived and ate everything, hungrily. Once full, he was happy to sit while most of us indulged in pudding and then cups of tea, while talking, but he made no move to escape as he sometimes does once he has finished eating. It was only when outside in the car park, as we said our goodbyes that he would not stand still and tried to run off, but up until that point, I could not fault his behaviour.

Hopefully he will tolerate the long drive home and he might even doze as we will get home after his bedtime, although he is less likely to sleep in the car than he once was. We have been very fortunate with Joshua’s tolerance for long car journeys, he tends to sit quietly and enjoy the ride. Usually he sits in the front passenger seat, due to his long legs, while his Dad drives and I am in the back seat next to all of our luggage, with the three dogs and the wheelchair in the boot, so we are a heavily laden car and my husband’s loading of the car is a creative art-form.

We will all be sad to leave our seaside paradise behind, knowing that we will not be back until the summer, but we cannot be too greedy, we have been very lucky to get away.

All is Well

It is half term school holidays this week and we are lucky enough to be able to go away again! We are very fortunate to have a home from home beside the sea to visit on holidays and its only downside is the long day travelling in the car to get there. But thankfully, Joshua is a great traveller; he used to sleep but now he stays awake for most of the time, looking around, eatingwaving and listening to our music. We stopped half way to let the dogs have a short walk and to grab some lunch and a break. While the woodland walk was a success, we made a mistake of buying lunch at an inpromptu cafe that was a double decker bus, with outside seating. The sunshine had brought many walkers out and so we could not find a table to sit at, just a bench. While my husband and I waited for our hot sandwiches to be cooked, Joshua enjoyed his chocolate muffin and quavers. So when our food arrived, he was ready to leave. so I was juggling an egg roll and a determined escapee, who wanted to get into the nearest car! Needless to say, it was not a relaxing break and we were all glad to get back in the car.

We arrived at the port earlier than the ferry we had booked and were able to catch an earlier ferry, meaning that we arrived before we were even due to set off and in daylight. Joshua knew exactly where he was as we approached and he started to get excited., pointing up ahead and jiggling in his seat. He was not prepared to wait in the car while we emptied the bags, he barged in too and he immediately found his favourite noisy toy that he had left out on his last stay, happy that he was at home again. He watched me make up his bed in his familiar bedroom and when the time came, later, he took me by the hand and lead me up to his bedroom, where he has slept quietly all night long, perhaps dreaming of beach walks and cafes that he will be looking forward to. All is well in the world, we are all together in one of our favourite places to be.

Holidays are coming, holidays are coming

I finished work for my two week Christmas break yesterday so I spent the day tying up loose ends and preparing to be away. I know how lucky I have always been as out offices close for the festive period, so I have never had to work between Christmas and new year. I know from experience that it will fly by faster than any other holiday. It is always a busier holiday than any other so I think that is what makes it go quickly, there is the run up to Christmas and then that lull before New Year and then bang, it is back to work. I joined my company on January 2nd 1990, so I am about to have my 29th anniversary, which seems ridiculous to me as that is a lifetime! How much has changed during those 29 years? I arrived newly graduated and keen to progress and learn, I had no idea back then that I would stay as long as I have. We got married after 5 years at work and bought  a house in the town where my office is, so I have a four minute commute, and we both worked hard, both doing more than our share of travelling for work. Then after 11 years, I took maternity leave to have, and then look after, baby Joshua.

I returned to work, for three days a week , when he was 6 months old and he went to a local childminder who had her own son who was 6 months older than Joshua. They all had fun together and that arrangement worked well and I had hoped that this would represent my permanent childcare solution. She took maternity leave to have her daughter and during that time, Joshua attended local nurseries, which he did not settle at and so it was with relief that he resumed his time with his childminder. That continued well until her mother died, leaving her an inheritance, and the family bought a retail business and she stopped being a childminder , sadly. So it was back to nursery until Joshua started at mainstream nursery school, which both he and I loved.

At that stage I increased my hours to four days a week and that has continued that I take Friday’s off. These Fridays are very precious to me, I have never been keen to resume full time hours. The plan is that my Fridays are ‘me time’, to use as I choose. Today for instance I am at school this morning for my monthly coffee morning, then I will do a supermarket shop on the way home and this afternoon, Joshua’s social worker is coming round. But they are not all like that, having last Friday off meant that we could enjoy a long weekend away and I have booked to go and visit two friends in the new year who I have not seen for many years. During term-time Friday is a day without Joshua at home, so whether I am doing things on my own, at school, with my husband or friends, it tends to be a Joshua-free day.

It is the last day of term today for him and so it will be my last Joshua-free day for two and a half weeks, which will be fun. I know that he enjoys school so now that he is busier and  more active, we will see how we all get on. He will enjoy the family-together time, although he will probably be less tolerant of the inevitable time that will be spent in the kitchen in the build up to Christmas, as he is less willing to watch from the snug, these days he comes into the kitchen too and stands very close, demanding cuddles and wanting to help by opening and closing drawers and cupboards for me. He used to be oblivious of what went on in the kitchen now it is a source of interest and also annoyance, as it is somewhere where he does not get full attention. He used to have long teenager lie -ins , so you could get on in the morning, but more recently, he is too busy to stay in bed and he usually appears around 7ish, ready to attack the day at full pace.

So today is the first day of my Christmas holiday…bring it on!

 

 

 

 

is day one of my Christmas holiday…bring it on!

And now, the end is near….

So today is the last day of our October half term holiday and tomorrow it is back to work and school. As I reflect back on the week we have spent together I see that :

  • We definitely made the right decision to go away nearer home and we have enjoyed our holiday in the countryside rather than at the coast. It is always hard to return home after a week away, but I am relieved to be facing a 2.5 hour drive home , rather than 7 hours in the car.
  • Despite some illness, we have enjoyed our stay and have got out and about everyday but one. I am sure that Joshua has recovered faster as a result of that day of quarantine. We have often had to separate in order to enjoy the things that we wanted to do, if it did not suit Joshua. For instance, we had planned to attend a local bonfire last night, but it was cold and raining and Joshua was contented at home, so my husband went to watch the fireworks without us and brought back some great photgraphs. Most days on the way home from an outing, one or other of us have taken the dogs on a walk at dusk. Although this is far from ideal, it is often simpler than involving a reluctant Joshua ,who is such a home-bird and would react badly to a detour.
  • Joshua’s new off-road wheelchair/trike was a good buy, as it came into its own on the walks that we took together this week. Joshua has looked super-comfortable and it has been much easier to push through grass and mud than his standard wheelchair ever would have been. I even pushed him up hill on yesterday’s river walk, just to see if I could manage it, and while I had to stop halfway for a rest, I did make it and without too much huffing and puffing!
  • I have been more aware of Joshua using bad behaviour to communicate when he is not enjoying an activity: he behaved appallingly in a walkng shop, throwing merchandise across the store, and he got what he wanted, I hurried up with my hat decision and we left quickly. It was clearly a protest against shopping as he was an angel in the pub, immediately afterwards, while waiting for lunch  smiling, hugging and sitting quietly. When he is impatient in the wheelchair, he has developed a stamp on the footplates, to indicate ‘hurry up lets get going’ which is also pretty effective
  • Joshua knows what he does and does not want to eat and if he is not in the mood for a particular dish, even if it is one of his favourites, then he will not entertain it. On two evenings, I offered him fish dishes that ordinarily he would enjoy , but he simply spat them both out and went upsatairs to his bedroom. On the first occasion, as he had eaten a decent lunch, I let it go and simply offered him weetabix for supper which he enjoyed. But on the other day, he had not really eaten much all day and we had been late offering him his evening meal. So when he rejected his fish, I relented and quickly offered him beans on toast instead and he ate that with real relish, showing that he was actually hungry, just did not approve of my first menu.
  • Our puppy Kevin is a key member of the family already and nothing made that more apparent than when he went missing yesterday and my husband and I searched anxiously for him. We had come to the conclusion that he must have got spooked and run away or had been stolen, when he peeped out, totally unaware of the search-party, from under a bed, where he had been fast asleep.

I will be sad to go back home later today and I will miss being with all of my family this week, after being in each others’ pockets, but I know that if we were together all  of the time, then this half term holiday would not be as special as it was.